a headache is approaching me from the back, while the shakes have the nerves to come up to me face to face. i don't know what to say to them because i'm confused. why are they working in tandem? why me? what is happening that these kids need to visit me? are they going to try to sell me drugs? but for some reason they don't say anything to me. i thought they would, honest. at least a little smile or a menacing "ima gonna get you!". instead it was just a lingering presence that makes me question every one of my motives in life and how true i am to myself. why don't i have any friends who i see on a regular basis? i can't deny that i need a life. and that the one i have isn't being lived out very well because i think all the time. i need to relax and enjoy. yes? the headache agreed with me and lightened its reigns. it was the first time either one of them did as little as mumble a word.
a phone interrupted the pleasant lull in telepathy between me and myself and the two leeches. it was my momma. she had good advice because she asked how i was doing. i was honest with her and told her that i didn't feel very good about my conversational skills and my ability to be sufficient for my friends. the headache and the shakes stayed quiet while i talked to her. i hung up and i felt both of them giving me a hug. it made me yawn and then my eyes welled up with tears. they told me they loved me and then walked away. i had never been so sad to see such things go.
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