I do not necessarily see the point in updating this thing, but i need a place to create a wishlist.
i am doing my best to stay away from livejournal because it has obviously proved destructive to me. proven on multiple occasions.

it is 5:26 am.
i have not been asleep since 7:56 am this morning. it has been years since i've stayed up for 24 hours. i do not think i will make it today, either.

i love what life has given me. there are precious people all around me. my sister had a friend commit suicide. she was 19 years old and it breaks my heart. more than 1000 people came to her funeral, and it wasn't just 'people'. it was her friends, family, teachers, mentors, people who actually cared about her. she felt so alone, but she had SO many people. it isn't fair and it definitely isn't fair whenever i think i don't do anything productive for anyone in this life. i just have to tell myself to shut up. also, my mom and i had a long discussion. we both agree that it would be a fantastic idea to back me off prozac.

i got my wedding invitation from marcus on friday. i'm excited....i have no date.